Some say laughter is the best medicine, but we have to believe that music is tied for the #1 spot. As Backstreet Boys fans, so many of us know firsthand how powerful and healing music can be, how one lyric can change your perspective and how one band can inspire you to keep going.
Daily, we see so many fans posting and tweeting about what the Backstreet Boys and their music have gotten them through. We also see so many of these people saying that they wanted to tell Kevin, Howie, Brian, AJ and Nick, but when it came time to meet them, they completely forgot what they were going to say besides “thank you”.
So, we invited you guys to share your stories of the best of times, the worst of times, and how the Backstreet Boys got you through it. We were blown away by the response and want to thank everyone who trusted us to share your deeply personal stories here and thereby sharing them with others all over the world. You guys are brave and your stories of overcoming, coping, and so much more are beautiful.
“It’s a day I’ll never forget – May 10, 2016. When the doctor told me, “I’m sorry but you have stage one breast cancer” – this just had to be a very bad dream, right???
The next day, after my bff went home after spending the night with me, I remember putting on “Try”, and as I sat there, I really started to cry as to me it felt like as if AJ was talking to me. “I know that your hurting now seems like it’s all gone wrong, keep slipping till you can’t go on. Don’t worry, I’m right by your side, my shoulder is yours if you need to cry. Feels the times when life is just too much. I know you want to but don’t give up”.
That song really gave me hope.
Everytime I’d have chemotherapy I’d put one earbud in and put my iPod on and play “Show ‘Em What You’re Made Of” and that song became my battle song for 6 months. This part of the song became my battle cry – “gloves are off ready
To fight like a lion I will survive” – and when listening to the song during chemotherapy, when I’d hear Kevin sing “don’t be afraid it’s gonna be alright”, made it easier to tolerate the pain. Also, I remember my first day of chemotherapy (May 31, 2016}, I was so scared and since my veins are hard to find took the nurse 9 tries before they found one on the top of my right hand. My left arm was all bruised from them trying to insert the needle for chemotherapy. Anyway, I turned my phone and saw Nick was on twitter. I tweeted him saying this BSB Girl is in chemotherapy 😩 he tweeted back a heart ❤️ and I then found out he followed me. OMG!!!
Finally, I had to have everyday for 5 weeks radiation. while I was doing my treatment was told don’t move or we will have to start over treatment was about 30 mins inside this tunnel with right arm up over my head. So I would sing BSB songs and it helped so much!! So the boys have helped me through one of toughest battles of my life, and now I believe anything is possible and I’ll be a BSB solider till I die. Ktbsbpa.” – Debra
“It all started when a babysitter back in about ’97 introduced me to Backstreet Boys. As my mother didn’t feel comfortable with a teenager handling, giving me, a little kid, my pain medicine. So how did I discover BSB? When Amanda (my babysitter) would play their music to distract me and hopefully not need the medicine. I immediately realized as a young child, the healing power of their music. They calmed down a raging headache. Also, they helped calm my nerves before going into the operating room. Hydrocephalus has caused me too endure over 100 operations in my nearly 26 years. A shunt is basically what’s kept me alive. Living with chronic pain, they’ve been so inspiring and healing in my life that all my doctors knew all to well too never tell me no when it came to seeing them. They even thought them too be better lifesavers!! With all the obstacles my disease has held up, they’ve helped me take it day by day and find ways on how too get through. Most importantly, what makes me eternally thankful is how over the past near nine years? They got me through a time, I didn’t think I could get through successfully. Living with chronic pain 24/7, I used to be on A LOT of fentanyl. Thanks to them, I don’t think I would’ve been able to survive the wean or being off nearly nine years. Being that brain surgery is my only treatment? Enduring well over 100? Living with chronic pain? My vision and memory not being too where I’d like, so I’m not on my own. I don’t drive. Not stable enough to work a full time job. Though I volunteer and gain experience in special education. My doctors have expected me to “throw in the towel” with everything I’ve gone through in life. Though, just watching Brian, Nick, AJ, Howie and Kevin over the years? Seeing all the ups and downs, whether it be personal or as a group? They have more than they could ever know helped me SURVIVE. They helped me get through the hard times. Even Dr. Ben Carson, throughout the years he cared for me, was really thankful for them. Called them better lifesaver than himself. That he a couple of times allowed me too put my health second just to see the boys.
Now lets get to one time, they are more than anything the BEST MEDICINE/LIFESAVERS in my life. It’s NOT easy keeping a positive attitude. I am in no way shape or form perfect. I came very close too taking my own life in 2014. Who really wants to be in constant pain, memory issues, feeling like a burden not able to tolerate a full-time job, not live on my own, and brain surgery after brain surgery? I swear more than anything, you don’t need any medical degree/doctorate to save someones life. If it weren’t for the boys, I would’ve NEVER gotten through the aftermath of my suicide attempt in 2014. It was a result of my shunt in total failure. Along feeling like a failure because my brain couldn’t tolerate college. As time went on, I was listening to them more than ever. They really helped me pick back up the pieces. So to me, they’re not just the most successful boy band, with incredible music. What I’ve loved most, is watching them grow as people. Seeing all the ups and downs they’ve had and how they’ve grown from it all. I’ve learned from it and try too demonstrate it in my own life from all that they’ve taught me. Heck, I ended in the ICU 1/25/19. THE DAY DNA RELEASED. That one week in the hospital? They got me through it. The 6 weeks after, on IV antibiotic at home? They kept me sane. So what do they mean to me in my life? They help me keep going. They help me continue. For that, I’m eternally thankful!!” – Emily
“My name is Kristine and I’m 35 years old. I’ve been a fan of the Backstreet Boys for 23 years. I’ve seen them many times in concert and luckily have even met them in person. This summer with their DNA tour coming to Canada. July 17th, the Toronto show, I had tickets. Tragically, the night before, my dad died. Well, on the phone with my mom, the first thing I said was tomorrow is the Backstreet Boy concert. We both instantly agreed that my dad would want me to go. In my heart, I know he did. So I went. Throughout these twenty-three years, BSB has always been my go-to. They had helped me through many other situations, but this, by far, was the worst one. Honestly, I don’t remember much of the concert, but what I do remember is that they were there for me when I needed them. For that hour and a half, in my hour of need, that band had my back. There are no words to sum up how much I truly love this band. And while my family slowly heals, I can always find moments of peace and calm with the Backstreet Boys.”
“I’ve been a fan since the mid 1990s and they have already helped me growing up and moving across country. My love for them continued into adulthood. In 2017, my mom had a heart transplant and she spent close to 6 weeks in the hospital. She almost died. I was a complete wreck. On top of all the things happening at the hospital, I was running the household of 4 dogs and paying both of our bills. Once she was able to recover enough to come home, I knew I needed the perfect thing so I treated myself to a weekend of their Vegas residency. I splurged on a pit ticket and waited for 3 hours to get the perfect spot. It was the closest I had ever been able to be during their concert and it was the best medicine I could have ever hoped for.” – Erin
“When I was 23 years old I was diagnosed with a brain tumor. I was in the hospital for a week. I was going through a divorce at the same time and my parents had to take care of my child while I sat in the hospital. I didn’t have anyone. I was scared and alone all I had was my music. At that time there was no Spotify, no smart phones, and all I had was an iPod. Backstreet Boys was all I had on my iPod and they are what kept me going in the hospital.
The day I found out it was a brain tumor I was given two options – one was surgery to remove it and the other was continue to live with it in and it would continue to grow. Where my tumor was located, it was sitting on my nerve that affected my right hand and arm. My daughter at the time was 2 1/2 years old, and I was told I could lose all feeling in my arm and hand if I left the tumor in so I made the decision to remove it. The very next day I was undergoing major surgery.
I came out okay. Thankfully, the tumor was benign and I had minor side effects. I did lose function in my right hand, but after physical therapy, I got some motion back.
Fast forward to about 2013, I started to have side effects again. They were the same side effects that rushed me to the hospital in the first place. I went to my primary care doctor and she told me I should have a cat scan. I refused to do it, I didn’t want to know my tumor was back. I was scared and couldn’t put my now more grown up daughter through that. She was at an age that she would understand more. It wasn’t until I heard “Show Em What You’re Made Of” that I had the courage to go and have the cat scan. The lyric that Kevin sings – “gloves are off ready to fight like a lion I will survive” – really gave me hope that I would be okay. If not for that song, I would not have gone and would not know today that I’m still ok and that I’m going to continue to watch my daughter grow up. As of January 2nd, I made 11 years that I’ve been clear. I consider myself lucky everyday to be apart of this fandom and to be able to tell my daughter that I’m here for her because of the Backstreet Boys.” – Nina
“I am a person with mental illness and am one of the people who learned a lot from the Backstreet Boys and at the same time gained confidence and courage.” – 松岡里奈
“I have a couple of struggles in my life that the Backstreet Boys music and personal struggles have helped me heal and look into brighter times. I’ve been a fan since I was in 6th grade 1996 thanks to my older sister! But I was never allowed to go to a concert because my father was strict and I was young and couldn’t afford it.
My first struggle that the Backstreet Boys have helped me happened in 2003. I was at my first college frat party and I regret going because I was drugged and raped. After this I hate all guys but I remember the only boys I loved and admired were the Backstreet Boys so with therapy and music that got me through that time.
One of my biggest two struggles was when I started dating my boyfriend in January 2015, throughout the years we had struggles but one of the biggest struggles was dealing with his psychosis and the behavior that followed. I discovered he was addicted to crystal meth and cocaine. All because of the mental illness induced by being in the navy seals. He was honorably discharged but I can’t even relate to what he has been through. I remembered one day seeing him at his lowest point in the hospital held on a psychiatric hold because he had an episode mixed with drugs and was convinced I was someone else that tried to hurt him and pushed me( he never laid a finger on me ever this was his first and last) and I ended up just falling nothing happened and I wasn’t harmed but that was the breaking point for him and for me being strong trying to get him through this because I am a psychology major so it helped me. But when all this was happening I kept playing the episode of Oprah when AJ was on it because he literally went through everything my boyfriend was with the drinking and drugs it was like I was living in the part of the backstreets and he was AJ. I remember the interview clearly and how AJ has been open to his struggles and Nick as well. Seeing them and how far they have come made me not give up. Their music and and inspiration helped me not give up on him and we are celebrating our 5th anniversary together and he is clean sober and will start chiropractor school soon!
The biggest by far biggest struggle was losing my dad because I didn’t know what was going to happen and in August 2018 he actually agreed to let me go to Vegas and see the Backstreet Boys on Halloween. My dad didn’t like any music and would call it noise in Arabic but he allowed me to listen to just the Backstreet Boys. I was so beyond excited and couldn’t wait but my dad was admitted to the hospital on September 19th because he couldn’t walk or eat, my world forever changed on September 23, 2018 when we got the call from my brother who said the doctor called him and dad passed away. I just fell to the floor and was overcome with grief and my phone started playing try by the Backstreet Boys by its self and I just remember crying and listening to it over and over again till I was able to sleep. I had to go back to work two days after and my phone connected to my car and started playing all my favorite Backstreet Boys songs and I saw a rainbow and it was like my dad was showing me he was watching over me. I got to go to my first concert and I was in the VIP section Halloween night with my boyfriend by my side and I got to shake hands with all of them and be up close by them it was beyond amazing. One thing that has helped me is being able to create memories seeing them in so many concerts now and their music just fills my heart with joy and honestly if it weren’t for any of the boys I don’t think I would of made it through the hardest times in my life to be where I am. I have contemplated ending my life and giving up mad at the world for putting me in situations that were not fair but having them be an inspiration seeing they have all conquered their fears and demons gave me the strength and will to be greater and get past the bad. The Backstreet Boys are the reason I’m with the love of my life, have the strength and try to heal from losing my father( I still can’t sleep throughout the night without listening to my favorite songs) and the strength to graduate in December of 2019 with my masters in business management which was hard because I wished my dad would of seen me. Ever since my dad passed I have to listen to Backstreet Boys on the way to work at lunch on the way back home and before bed. I am just beyond grateful to them and so blessed to have met them and hug each of them which I wish I could do again and say thank you for being the reason my family isn’t heartbroken because they honestly have given me life when I was in a deep dark spot. For that I am eternally grateful.” – Mary
“My name is Andrea and I am from Colombia. As many people have shared, the Backstreet boys are more than a vocal harmony group for me, they are my escape from bad times.
I’ve been a fan since 1998, and God they have helped me a lot. I’ve been overweight since I was 12 years old, and as it’s usual, with the weight excess came the bullying.
I’ve dealt with this issue for a long time, but it was just while I was crying listening for the first time “Show ’em what you’re made of” that I realized no matter the bullying, the bad comments and the rejection, it was my decision to let people hurt me.
“When walls start to close in, your heart is frozen over, just show ’em what your made of” is what I sing to myself when I feel defeated. This song has kind of become my self love anthem.”
“My name is Ana, I am 30 years old and still a happy Backstreet Boys fan! I’ve listened to them since I was about 6 or 7 years old. I didn’t know it then but their music would give me hope in my most darkest of times. When I was 10 years old, I began to be abused by the man I grew up with. For years, I endured this pain in silence because he was the only father figure I knew. While his abuse was a very soul shattering experience, I never gave up hope that someday things would change. The light melodies and songs of always having someone out there that will love you and treat you better combined into a warm embrace when I needed it most. Thankfully, today, I am in a much better place but I will always remember moments when, “I’ll be the one” was my only reason to smile.
Thank you Backstreet Boys.”
“When I was 12 years old, depression had almost gotten the best of me and I almost committed suicide. I had turned on my favorite CD (BSB MILLENNIUM) to cover my cries. But before I could do anything to hurt myself, my CD started to skip. It had never done that before. But when I fixed it, it was of all songs, “I Want It That Way”. But instead of the words encouraging me to go ahead and do it, my head interpreted it as reverse psychology. It was A.J.’s verse that caught my attention. It had always been my one dream and desire to meet them and it was like he was telling me now that I was about to kill myself it’s too late and I would never get to meet them. As the song continued to play, the chorus had touched me as well. Like they were all telling me that they never want to hear me say I want to kill myself again.
Still to this day, every time I would be upset and need a friend, I just play BSB music or watch a video on YouTube. I especially admire A.J.’s videos about anti-bullying, self esteem, just be yourself and love yourself. Alex has always been more of a big brother to me than my own brothers. I just wish that one day I will be able to afford to meet him and thank him for everything he has helped me with over the years. Oh and p.s. After that day, my Millennium CD never skipped again.” – Megan
“My lovely mum was diagnosed with bowel cancer in 2017. She went into hospital on my birthday. I was 4 months pregnant me and my family was in so much shock. I would cry myself to sleep each night, throughout my whole pregnancy. I would keep fearing the worst and she wouldn’t live to see her third grandchild born. It was a really an emotional hard time as her cancer is terminal. I listened to a lot of my favourite Backstreet Boys songs to help ease the pain. My mum has been through rounds after rounds of chemotherapy and she has just recently been told that the chemotherapy isn’t working any longer and she might have a longer life on a drug that she has to buy herself and have at a private hospital (this drug costs £3000!!…every three weeks!!). Her husband has paid the first two she needs at least 6 rounds to get her scanned to see if this new drug has helped her.
I’m trying to think of fundraisers to do for my mum to get her the treatments she needs. My mum has always been there for me and she’s so amazing and strong. She is always asking how everyone is and never complaining about herself. I have been to quite a lot of Backstreet Boys concerts and my mum has brought me quite a few tickets for their shows. She knows my love for them as I’ve been a devoted fan since I was 15. I’m now 38. I still play their songs to help me through my down days and help me to be strong for my mum. I’m praying this drug works and we can help fund it for her. Thank you Backstreet Boys for the music and for being in my life even though you don’t know me.” – Leanne
“I’m Rebeca from Brazil (Porto Alegre). I was just 10 years old when I first listen to BSB. They are the reason I really learned English, because of their music. When I was 16, I found out I was born with Turner syndrome mosaic, which means my DNA is broken at last chromosome. From being the girl who only saw the boys in my hometown to being the one who travels and meet them in Las Vegas and Cruise, a lot of hard study and work paid off. I have had so many dreams come true and found so much love from the boys and from the friends I got because of them. I feel so grateful for everything, and now I’m not afraid to face who I am and that’s when things started to happen.”
“Three years ago, I was raped. It was really shocking for me, and I started to suffer from anxiety, panick attack, eating disorder, etc.
I couldn’t laugh. Nobody could make me laugh at that time. Nothing moved my heart. Nothing reached to my soul. I couldn’t feel any emotion at that time. It was the lowest time in my life.
However, I tried to watch some Backstreet Boys’ videos on youtube. Because they’re my favorite boyband.
Then, there was a man who made me laugh so easily.
That was Brian Littrell.
I knew he’s a goofy guy and has a sense of humor, but trust me, his natural talent of being goofy is genuine! But I thought he’s not just a funny man. I mean, I realized that he knows how to make people happy. He tries to make us feel better any time any place. That’s not easy and that’s amazing. I think his jokes and funny faces and silly moves are kind of “love”. That’s his way of giving us love. I feel it, so I feel really better when he does these things. Brian could make me laugh and make me feel better when I was at the lowest time in my life. That was almost a miracle thing.
Plus, his voice also healed my heart. His voice reached to my soul, and it gave me a power to live. I don’t know how to explain it, but his voice is something special to me. It soothed me so much. To be honest, I was thinking about suicide because of mental disorder after that rape, but Brian Littrell saved me. I think his character, jokes and voices have saving lots of people like me.
After Brian stole my heart, every time I saw him I recovered so much. Now my life is full of smiles and energy just like him. I’m healthy now and I enjoy working. I became a positive girl who can love my life. I also went to DNA world tour last year!
I’m so thankful for him.
Anyways, I can say that he’s my hero.
Thank you Brian for saving my life.” – Millie
“The Backstreet Boys music is always my go to if I am having a bad day. During the last year and a bit, it is has helped me through a surgery and separation from my husband. I have been a fan for 26 years and would be lost without my Boys.” – Michelle
“How can I ever really describe how much impact the boys have had on my life? After I lost my mom on December 18th 2013, I was very depressed and I ate my feelings. I was not in a good place but the boys did a show for in a world like this in Omaha and after the show my dad asked me how it was and I said it was everything that I remember their shows being. I cried, smiled, screamed and just had an amazing time. I told my dad how there were cruises and meet and greets and how I really wanted to do one as I wanted to thank them for giving me amazing memories with my mom. He said we would have to do that and he promised to help me make it happen. 3 months later, my dad passed away and I continued to eat my feelings and my health declined. They announced the European cruise and I knew I had promised my dad that I would go meet them and thank them for what amazing memories they had given me with my mom, and now my dad. My only issue was I’d gained a lot of weight and was now extremely unhealthy and at didn’t know if I could handle the flight to Europe. So in December 2014, I made a drastic decision to undergo gastric sleeve surgery. On January 5th 2015, I underwent the surgery which was scary, nerve-wracking, and exciting all at the same time. I was dedicated and by the time the cruise rolled around, I had lost 77 lb of the hundred and ten that I needed to lose and was feeling better every day. I was able to easily fly to Europe with no complications and meet the boys for the first time. The whole experience was a dream come true and led me to become addicted again to BSB but mostly it gave me the joy in my life that I had been missing. It gave me something other than food to help me feel happy and loved. The bottom line is it’s saved my life, without that cruise I would not have pushed myself to undergo surgery and to change my entire life back around. I look back now and I realize how much the boys have given me throughout my entire life. They gave me amazing memories of my mom at concerts where she was rocking out and loving Kevin! They also gave me amazing memories with my dad, he didn’t go to the concerts, but him and I worked a lot of hours together on a website and it caused us to get a lot closer. Now I have a family of friends that I honestly do not know what I would do without. I have traveled the world and continue to do so and even though I miss my parents so very much I’m able to get through it because of all that AJ, Brian, Kevin, Howie and Nick have given me. They not only saved my life they brought joy, friendship and love back into my life. Honestly I now go to shows to see my fan-imily!” – Carrie
“The boys have clearly helped millions of fans all over the world fight issues in their personal life, or relationships, whatever it might be. For me personally, the boys have helped me get through some pretty crazy times in my life. Dealing with confidence issues (which is a whole other story), stupid boyfriends, and just overall to step back and just breathe (haha no pun intended). I listened to the boys while I was pregnant with my daughter and they helped me get through the entire pregnancy. Thankfully it was smooth and now she’s turning one next week! I’ve never met the boys, but I would love to say thank you for getting me through life.” – Tracy
“I lost my husband at a young age to cancer. I’ve always been a BSB fan from day 1. My late husband was not a fan of their music but I would secretly sneak off to listen whenever I could. After my loss and having 3 small children, I was devastated. Didn’t want to eat or go to work but then, after cleaning out some of my husband’s things, I found a BSB DVD that I had hidden. I started listening and immediately found myself feeling better. No lie… Their music saved my life so to speak and brought me back to being a normal person and better mom.” – Laurie
“My name is Lauren and this is my story about how the Backstreet Boys have helped me:
About a year ago, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I was so depressed I could not leave my house without having an anxiety attack. Then DNA came out and it re-ignited my love for the Backstreet Boys. I would spend my days listening to them for hours and it was the only thing that comforted me and made me feel like I would be ok. I started being able to go on walks while listening to them until eventually I didn’t have panic attacks anymore. It’s comforting to me that they have been around for me my entire life – it’s rare to have such a constant like that. A few months later I met AJ and Howie for the first time at an after party and got to tell them my story and it was honestly one of the coolest moments of my life. I would be so lost without them and I’m thankful for them every day.”
“I’ve been a fan of the boys ever since the first time I saw quit playing games. I won’t lie I love them all but nick has definitely had a place in my heart since the start. I was born in 87, but grew up in the 90’s and BSB were everywhere. I never had the chance when I was younger to see a concert, but that didn’t stop my love of BSB. With growing up in the 90’s I loved all the pop bands that were around, as I grew I still liked the same music but didn’t really keep listening to them. With one big exception and that’s BSB, I had quite a few albums and the greatest hits I always listened to. Fast forward a few years and the in a world like this tour came to England, I was desperate to go. I had the money there were plenty of tickets available but couldn’t find anyone to go with so I chickened out and I was gutted.
At the start of 2018 I was a bit I’ll nothing serious but had to go for a scan at the hospital. Out of the blue I was told I had cancer and it had spread to my spine. This was the worse moment of my life, and for the next couple of months lots of scan followed. And whenever I had a MRI my CD of choice is always a BSB album. Having to lay in a tube completely still for half hour or more wasn’t the best experience but I always had BSB to listen to. It made me forget for a bit and enjoy lying there listening to all the great songs was the only thing that gave me some happiness during the worse time of my life. When the boys announced a new tour I couldn’t believe it. I was determined I WAS going to see them this time. From the moment the tour was announced I kept asking friends if they wanted to go and searching for a way to get to London, on my own if I had to. But by February, I was losing hope it was going to happen, then I just asked my cousin. We’re the same age and grew up down the street from each other, our music tastes were always the same. She just came straight out and said yes, I couldn’t quite believe it and from there all o thought about for 5 months was I would finally see the I’m concert. We couldn’t afford to do meet and greet which would be the ultimate dream but I was still over the moon I would see them. I won’t lie after the concert which was amazing I had BSB blues for ages. But I was determined I would save enough to do a meet and greet and pay for my cousin to do it as well as a surprise, I’ve never been good at saving until now. I might have gone a little obsessed. I’m researching all the tours they have done since the start to see where they have played before, researching transport to and from each venue and hotels around same venues so that when they announce another UK tour I’ll know straight away where to stay how to get there and how to get to the venue. I hope they come back this year but unsure whether I could save enough for meet and greets but then I kinda don’t want them to come back this year as I would definitely go but wouldn’t be able to meet them.
Through all of this they have been my medicine, I live in fear of the cancer every day but even just listening to one of their songs gives my hope and happiness of what I have seen and what I hope to see next time. Throughout my life I’ve had favourite TV programs, films and music but there are not many I can honestly say I have liked constantly since I was a child. BSB are one, through all the highs and lows of my life there are a few constants and I couldn’t of asked for anything better. I don’t know what the future holds for me now, but my hope is that I can see another BSB concert and that I can finally meet them. What better medicine in life could I want, just singing my all-time favourite song The One can make me smile.” – Kerry
“My name is Dan. Backstreet Boys have helped me through so much! May of 2005, a friend committed suicide. Around that time, Never Gone was released. The song, Never Gone, helped and continues to help me cope with her death.
They’ve also helped me through countless broken hearts and depression. I’ve been single my whole life. When I’ve been down due to situations in life, their songs have helped me to power through. The chorus for Show ‘Em What You’re Made Of has such a positive impact for me. I am so thankful for Backstreet Boys!!!”
“As I was growing up, I knew something was wrong with me. I had been bullied ever since I was a little girl because my weight goes up and down all the time and when I first heard the Backstreet Boys, I felt instantly better. I still struggle to this day with my weight, my mental illness and everything from my past especially when I was raped as a 16yo. I thought of so many ways to end my life and I had all the BSB albums thus far and as I say crying I had the radio blasting and certain songs like “Darlin” “All I Have To Give” “I’ll Never Break Your Heart” helped me so much and I always pictured it daydreamed they were singing only to me and with that, well I’m here today because of them, their music, and how much they love us as we love them. I’ve never got to see a BSB concert, but their music kept me alive and by the Grace of God he isn’t done with me yet either.” – Chelsea
“I was the goth teenager, I hated all pop until my friend made me listen to and perform a bsb song for a talent show.
She convinced me with pics of Aj.
He was tatted and didn’t look like your typical boy band member.
I was hooked.
It’s like he gave me permission to be different.
It was ok not to fit in with everybody.
It was ok to just be me then.
I followed their music for years, I ended up getting married and losing track for a bit.
I got hooked on meth.
It was ugly but true.
Then I saw the interview Aj did on Oprah.
He inspired me to get clean.
If he could mess up and get right, so could I.
I have been clean for a number of years and owe it all to them.
I started following them again.
I had cervical cancer and their music pulled me through, I lost a child from an abusive relationship, I was 7 months pregnant.
Their music pulled me through.
I was fortunate to meet them this year.
I had a panic attack because as soon as I turned the corner, Howie had me in a hug.
I can’t handle being touched if I’m not expecting it.
I started to flip out.
AJ was there, he talked me down.
He kept telling me it’s ok and just held me for a few.
I can’t adequately describe in words what they have done for me.
All I know is they have always been my constant.
The only regret I have is that I wasn’t able to tell them when I met them.
Because I was mid anxiety attack.” – Donna
“I got diagnosed with breast cancer May 2019. I listened to BSB music during my chemo treatments to pass the long hours and cheer me up! And as silly as it sounds, I brought a little picture of them to each treatment to keep me positive and happy!” – Kristen
“When I was trying to have a baby…way back almost 16yrs ago now…BSB would always be playing. When I walked into Dr’s offices for appointments, anything baby related there they were. The morning of my second round of IUI…Shape of My Heart was playing as I walked back for the procedure…6 months later, yup she’s a premie…Madison was born. So now…if I’m headed for anything big…I hear a BSB song, I know it’s gonna be ok. They’re like my good luck charm. ” – Melly
“So I guess I should start where all good stories do, at the beginning, and I apologise for it going way back but but I do feel it is important to get the real understanding.
Some 20+ years ago in a sleepy village in the South West of England, Two young girls became friends for life, mutually bonded with their love for a certain boy band. Yep, you guessed it, The Backstreet Boys.
Days,nights,weeks,months,years,were spent reading every interview, researching every fact, watching and re watching every concert, copying all the dance routines, adorning every inch of our bedrooms with their posters and photos, making up stories about how one day we would meet them, and making sure even our parents knew every word to their songs. To be honest I think even now my dad and Danielle’s mum could belt out “ Everybody” word perfect, and probably the dance routine to boot. We were simply nothing less than besotted!
So we skip forward to 2015, the years had been kind to us, still best friends, still as besotted with the boys, but now with beautiful families to call our own. I was 28, married with 3 sons, and Danielle was 29, in a relationship with 1 daughter and expecting their next when she got some unexpected and unwelcome news. At 29 weeks pregnant on the 2nd September she was told both her kidneys were failing. Badly. At first they were unsure whether it could be pregnancy related so decided to induce early, But first she spent 4 weeks on 6 days a week dialysis, 3 hours at a time. At 33 weeks Danielle’s daughter was born, weighing a tiny 3lbs 14oz, and had a 3 week stay in the special care unit. She was indeed a ray of sunshine in uncertain times.
The joy however was short lived as Danielle’s kidneys showed no sign of improvement and she began a grueling Hemo Dialysis schedule. With a premature baby and a 10 year old daughter to care for. This meant travelling to hospital 3 times a week for 4 hours at a time. This was incredibly had for everyone around her and Danielle battled like a warrior. Close family and friends were tested to see if they could become living donors but sadly none of us could donate. So she, along with many others, joined the transplant list. Eventually after biopsy’s and a surgery to insert a PD line, Danielle was allowed to dialysise at home, saving her quite so many trips to the hospital. She was still under close watch from doctors and consultants.
Being more tied to home where all her equipment and drugs lived, I would visits as often as I could and we would spend hours listening to our favourite BSB songs, watching the old concerts, reminding ourselves of what wonderful memories we had and reminiscing on the old times of which the boys were very much a part of. We felt they has lived through the years with us, endured love, heartbreak, and happiness. We had watched them grow up and become husbands and fathers, their stories and music just seemed to always be able to help with whatever obstacles we had faced and blimey, this was a big one!
The thing is, over time, it became harder to believe there was going to be a light at the end of the tunnel, it’s hard to make plans when you don’t know how long you have. The dialysis kept Danielle well enough to get through the day, but exhausted and all of us just prayed this would keep working. It was in our heads that the dialysis one day might not work as well, then not so well again. Then what would we do. With no suitable donors in the horizon, everyday became a battle, not only physically but now mentally. But every day she soldiered on, confining to be the most amazing mum and friend. Oh how I wanted to take her to Vegas to see the residency, but to leave the house for one night was almost an impossibility let alone the Country.
3 years after diagnosis in November 2018 they released “ Chances” and announced a tour. Of course I went straight to Danielle’s so we could listen to the new song together for the first time and discuss the excitement of the tour!
Chances is an incredible song and as soon as we heard it we fell in love and again the lyrics are so relatable, to love, to life and to friendship. “ Two in a Million, once in a life” Those words, right there made us decide, we were going to this tour, we weren’t just going to talk about the memories we had anymore, we were going to make damn sure however much time we had, we were going to make new memories to cherish.
This gave Danielle a boost she so desperately needed. Once again those 5 boys stepping in, and they had no idea.
The night before the fan club pre sale, we were on the phone, going over and over our well penned plans for the next morning. We laughed and giggled and shrieked and for me that was the sound of pure joy and happiness. So the morning came, neither of us having slept too well and I arrived at Danielle’s armed with my laptop, iPad and phone. Not forgetting my credit card! This was to be precision buying at its finest. 9 am arrived, the tickets released, we had decided on June 15th 2019 Birmingham, as it just felt right. Two VIP meet and greet tickets were purchased and we reverted to pair of teenagers! First things first we rang Danielle’s mum and my dad! They thought they best warn the boys about us!
Danielle promptly informed her nurse she now couldn’t even think about a transplant until after June as it was a 6 month recovery, and she of course was going to this concert come hell or high water! They agreed that she could have one night off the dialysis, as we would have to stay away, and were going to make her dormant on the register the weekend of the concert.
We joked about showing them her line, how we were going to glitter it, she was going to tell them she was missing a night of dialysis and their concert better be good. A different mood came over us both and we counted down every day, excited was not the word, It’s a feeling even now I still am mot describe. I could finally see by best friend re emerging out of this cloud that had hung over her and it was amazing.
But on the 14th December 2018, late at night she had a phone call that would change everything.
“We have found you a match “
And so they drove over an hour to Bristol to begin the wait. I will never forget the feeling I had when I got the news, I cried, tears of joy, sadness, thinking someone had sadly lost their life, of fear as this wasn’t going to be without risk, and hope, hope this would be the start or new beginnings.
So this is where I truly believe something called fate stepped in……..I wrote a line earlier about it being a 6 month recovery, The transplant took place on December 15th 2018, our concert date was exactly 6 months away, the date we had picked because it felt right, June 15th 2019. You cannot tell me that that somewhere, somehow this was not divine intervention.
The transplant went as well as could be expected, the kidney too a while to “ wake up” and we were all on tenterhooks for the first few days. I visited on the 18th and could not believe the happy face I saw. We knew there was a long road ahead, but we would face it together and we had a really important date! Danielle was allowed home on Christmas Eve 2018 to begin the nest part of her journey.
Her recovery went well, nothing short of inspirational, Every milestone smashed, and my best friend was back, with a vengeance I hasten to add!!
We had waited over 20 years for this opportunity, to see and meet the, all and she was not letting anything stand in her way. Having released the DNA album we soon settled that “ No Place” was our favourite, our anthem, if you will. It was so beautiful and once again related to our lives.
Soon we were talking outfits and plans for our weekend to see the boys in concert. We even arranged pens in my office of how we would stand for our photos, trawled other meet and greets for inspiration, rehearsed what we were going to say. Bearing in mind we were now 32 and 33 but we loved every second. Our dream was coming true and and it was so special as we were celebrating so much more. We were celebrating second chances.
The tour kicked off and we were gathering every bit of info we could from fan sites, making a playlist of the tour set list. Our 12 year old selves would have been proud.
So the day arrived, and we had packed enough to sink a small ship, on the train we hopped, listening to the playlist and getting more and more excited the closer we got. We raised a glass to the new kidney as we passed through Bristol, where exactly 6 months before the transplant had taken place.
That afternoon and evening was surreal, the tour and VIP lounge made us feel like royalty. Before we knew it we were queuing, at the front of the queue behind a screen, were 5 guys who unknowingly had helped us through the darkest and hardest times, brought us closer than ever before, and genuinely I know helped Danielle not to give up.
Of course I planned to tell them all of this, as we stood there just staring at each other that we were finally there, we had made it.
Our turn came and of course we chose to meet them together, Now I had a little script all rehearsed in my head and of course the second I rounded that corner I managed to forget everything, including my own name, and Danielle did too, Now boys if you’re somehow still reading this incredibly long story, then firstly I applaud you and secondly I apologise for the red head and the blonde who incoherently babbled their way through their meet and greet and hung off you like a couple of cats! Oh and then screamed from behind the screen, yeah that was us!
The concert itself was the most amazing night of our lives. I caught Kevin’s signed pants and we cracked out the old dances. Nothing will ever come close to the sheer euphoria we felt that night. We hugged and teared up through “ No Place” life had come full circle, and as we stood there we had never been so grateful. Without doubt they SO still have it going on.
So there we have it, A story of how The Backstreet boys really did save the day, and a life. And they didn’t even know. But you know if there’s even the smallest chance they do read this, then now they do know. And maybe if they come back to the UK and we manage to secure meet and greet tickets again then I might just keep my cool long enough to tell them?? Ohhh please who am I trying to kid! I will never be able to keep my cool around them. And as for Danielle, well the steroids she is on can make her a bit make her a bit feisty…….
I hope you have enjoyed our story, as with all of the fans our stories all cross paths somewhere and they all have the same 5 heroes.
Anyway I’ve stayed up until midnight writing about them again…….it’s been a few years since I’ve done that! But this one doesn’t end with their tour bus breaking down in a remote Devon village, instead it’s a much more unbelievable ending. That against all odds, 20 years later, those two young girls really did meet The Backstreet Boys.
I just hope it’s not another 20 years until we meet again.” – Jenna
“It probably doesn’t seem like a big deal now that I’m on the other side but 2018 was the worst year for me in many ways. One blessing it gave me was my son, Carter, who was born in October 2018, but I had a high risk pregnancy because of high blood pressure. A month after Carter was born, I was in the hospital for 4 days and ended up having my gallbladder removed. While in the hospital, I had to have an MRI and I was very nervous about it because I had never had one done. The technician allowed me to pick music to listen to during the test and of course I picked BSB. That was the only thing that kept me calm through it. Two weeks after having my gallbladder out, I had my six week postpartum checkup and the OB found a nodule on my thyroid, which I ended up having an ultrasound and needing a biopsy. When I was leaving the hospital after my biopsy, I heard “I Want It That Way” playing on the hospital sound system. I just knew that was my sign that everything would be ok (and my nodule was benign after all). At the end of 2018, I ended up being one of the lucky ones that got an autographed BSB Christmas card in the mail. BSB honestly got me through the hardest year of my life so far and I’m so thankful for their music!” – Clair
“BSB is my medicine, because they helped me through the depression and anxiety due to past relationships.The Shape of my Heart pulled me from a dark space.”
“My summer did not go as planned. I was to have surgery, recover and see the Backstreet Boys. I did have surgery. My surgeon almost guaranteed I would be recovered enough to see the boys on August 12 – the Detroit, MI stop for the DNA Tour. Unfortunately I was admitted to the hospital on August 7th and was discharged late evening on August 12th. Yes, I missed my show.
I was devastated. I was going to have DNA Circle with M&G. I was meeting a few new friends as well. But what kept my spirits going and helped me get through the trauma I had gone through was I could listen to their music. I could talk or text a friend that I had made through this fandom I now call “Fanmily”. I could read a blog on What Happens On The Backstreet and feel good about how being a fan lead me to a group of friends that I can lean on day or night.
I did recover and I DID see the Backstreet Boys in Pittsburgh on September 14, 2019 with friends. It wasn’t the summer I expected … but with help from my FANMILY and the Boys, I made it through.” – Stephanie